Chapter Five: My Love for you will still be Strong

If you love music as much as I do, you will defiantly relate to this blog post. And if you don’t, I hope you will look at music differently and learn to appreciate it more. Music can heal your soul. I believe that with all that is in my being. I have music playing A LOT. Zyan will say, can we listen to music? UMMMM YES, of course, we can!!! Why wouldn’t we?

That’s just the way it is
Some things’ll never change
That’s just the way it is
Ah, but don’t you believe them-Bruce Hornsby

I recently saw an Instagram picture from President Obama, and it was a list of music. His summer playlist, and as I recall, it had fifty songs on it. The songs were from many different artists, genres, and years. That got me to start yet another TO DO on my journey to healing — a Fall Playlist on Spotify. I have had fun listening to songs that remind me of things from my past, like the song With or Without You by U2. One of my friends from college loved U2! And at that time I did not appreciate them. I do now though, and I would say their concert is one of my all-time favorite live shows. Thanks, Nicole, for planting that seed. Rambling Man by The Allman Brothers reminds of the many nights I would drive my drunk friend Jerri Kay home in her red car(though I can not remember the make)and then have to listen to her dad gripe at us for coming in late and trashed. Let me say I was usually the driver and did not get trashed, but I got the same tongue lashing. Moon River from Breakfast at Tiffany’s watching Gossip Girl until 2 am. I LOVE MUSIC!!!! It plays an enormous role in my life. Does it yours?

And tell the ones you love you love them
Teach only what you know, and oh
You better know it well-Vance Joy

The day that Maggie died, I drove to find Brad in silence. No music to dance to in the car “Hand Jiving” Brad calls it. No loud singing. SILENCE!

BUT………

On the day of each one of my grandchildren’s birth, I played Your Song by Sir Elton John. There is a line that goes like this…..So excuse me forgetting. But these things I do. You see, I’ve forgotten. If they’re green or they’re blue. Anyway, the thing is what I really mean. Yours are the sweetest eyes I’ve ever seen. Those three babies have the sweetest eyes I have ever seen next to the eyes of my own three babies. I miss seeing Maggie’s eyes, and I can say that looking at pictures eases the pain only just a tiny bit. She had a particular spirit in her eyes — a wondering. Sometimes a look of a loss of where do I belong? Sometimes a dancing sparkle that was beautiful and enchanting. I see those eyes some days in Zyan’s eyes, and again I am thankful for those small bits from heaven, but it is not the same. The sweetest eyes I have ever seen belong to….. Briar, Maggie, Maeleigh, Zyan, Nolan, and Mila. Thank you Sir Elton for singing such a beautiful line.

As I am writing, I have…. you guessed it been listening to my Fall Playlist. Each song has given me a scene in my mind of something that has made me smile, laugh out loud, cry, dance and “hand jive,” and sing LOUD and PROUD (BTW it is 12:53 AM). Those are the memories that made me a wealthy soul…Travelin’ Man Bob Seger. I would love to know what song has made your soul wealthy, sing, and hand jive! And if you don’t have one search music, start listening to songs from past years close your eyes and let your mind wander and rejoice or cry. Start a playlist of all kinds of music you will soon thank me, or President Obama is ok to thank too(I stole the idea from him). You will quickly be recalling friends who used a cigarette to melt a cassette tape(I do not condone this type of music abuse), so we would not have to hear The Red Hot Chili Peppers again. See yourself driving into Monument Valley mesmerized by the beauty of the world we all inhabit. Or dancing with your husband on your wedding day or your son on his. Riding in your first car, thinking you were the coolest sixteen-year-old jamming to Def Leppard. Remembering the way you felt hearing “THAT” song for the first time. Music is amazing, isn’t it? So share with me your amazing song that has a special memory in your soul!

Some of the songs on my list in no particular order:
The Power of Love
Save a Prayer
I’m on Fire
Easy
Roll me Away
Jolene
I say a Little Prayer

Poncho and lefty
Moon River
Over the Rainbow (Judy Garland)
Moment of Silence
Your Song
Feel it Still

The Weight (one of my top three favorite songs) Give it a listen below Featuring Robbie Robertson | Playing For Change | Song Around The World ….You will be glad you did!

I need to go the bed and turn on my Deep Sleep music on the App Insight Timer and get some rest. My Great Niece Kilynn loves listening to the Deep Sleep and asked Grammy J to download it for her. My own sweet grands know and have an appreciation for music. If you want to add some joy to your life find it in a song!! You too will soon be hand jiving!!

One of Maggie’s favorite songs…Moment of Silence

I’m not lost
I just can’t find my way

Don’t anybody want a moment of silence?
Nothing but a blank page to hide in—Brent James

Music can change the world- Beethoven

I miss you so much, I can’t stand it. Seems like my heart is breaking in two….Seems like the spirit is pushing me onward….Van Morrison

Be well…peace and light—–La Wanda